By: Jasper Wilde

In a time when the intersections of personal identity, faith, and belonging are being redefined, Here I Am, the latest documentary from filmmaker Dar Dowling, emerges as a powerful exploration of courage, authenticity, and spiritual evolution. At the heart of this deeply moving film is Moshe Browning, a transgender man navigating his conversion to Conservative Judaism, whose story unfolds with openness, nuance, and grace.

With Here I Am, Dowling offers a candid yet uplifting look at what it means to stand fully in one’s truth — before family, community, and the divine. The film doesn’t just follow a transition in gender or religion; it examines a human being’s quest to align every part of their identity with their deepest beliefs.

The Story Behind the Film

The inspiration behind Here I Am began when Dowling first encountered Moshe’s journey. “His commitment to both his faith and his identity was striking,” she recalls. “There was a powerful spiritual energy in the way he approached his conversion—so open, so vulnerable, and so intentional. I knew right away this was a story worth telling.”

Over eight years of filming and editing, Dowling documented Moshe’s path as he engaged with rabbis, studied sacred texts, and prepared himself emotionally and spiritually for a mikvah—the ritual bath that marks his official entry into Judaism. Along the way, the film captures intimate conversations, quiet, emotion-filled moments, and the unwavering joy of living authentically.

Here I Am: The Meaning Behind the Title

The title Here I Am is drawn from the Hebrew word Hineni, a phrase of sacred significance often uttered in moments of divine calling or profound personal commitment. Dowling explains, “Hineni means more than just ‘I’m here.’ It’s a declaration of presence, humility, and readiness. In Moshe’s case, it was about showing up for himself, his community, and his faith, with nothing hidden.”

Unforgettable Moments on Film

One of the film’s poignant moments comes when Moshe is asked if he’s come out as transgender to his synagogue. The tension in his silence is palpable. “It’s not the answer I expected,” Dowling admits. “What he shares in that scene is so vulnerable, so unexpected—it moved me deeply and opened my heart at the same time.”

Equally unforgettable is the final scene, where Moshe emerges from the mikvah. The sheer elation on his face speaks volumes. “That moment,” Dowling says, “captures the soul of the story—joy, relief, and arrival.”

A Labor of Love and Community

Filming Here I Am took nearly a decade—not out of delay, but out of devotion. “We gave this story the time it needed,” Dowling says. “There were emotional and logistical challenges, but the slow pace allowed the depth and authenticity that couldn’t have been achieved otherwise.”

She credits her team—including editor Ricardo Madan, supportive rabbis, and, of course, Moshe himself—for creating an environment where truth could thrive. “A film like this can’t be made alone,” she adds. “It was a community effort, and that mirrors the message of the film itself—transformation happens in relationship, not isolation.”

More Than a Film—A Cultural Touchstone

Here I Am arrives at a moment when conversations around gender, religion, and inclusivity are more vital than ever. It stands not just as a documentary, but as an invitation: to listen more deeply, to question with compassion, and to recognize the sacred in one another’s stories.

To learn more about Here I Am and filmmaker Dar Dowling’s body of work, visit her website and join the conversation about identity, belonging, and the beauty of becoming.

Published by Joseph T.